“When you feel perpetually unmotivated, you start questioning your existence in an unhealthy way; everything becomes a pseudo intellectual question you have no interest in responding whatsoever. This whole process becomes your very skin and it does not merely affect you; it actually defines you. So, you see yourself as a shadowy figure unworthy of developing interest, unworthy of wondering about the world - profoundly unworthy in every sense and deeply absent in your very presence.”—Ingmar Bergman (via forlornes)
I think it made it worse that I’d been to the Huntarian Museum yesterday looking at the insides of various things and have left in denial that I have a skeleton and organs and such and this happened and nope I have bones they are right there inside me and my finger
Last night I got my most important finger (the drawing finger) stuck in the hinge of a fire door and twisted the top of my finger p much off you can see the bone!!! I then had such a colossal panic attack meaning I couldn’t go to A&E so I hope that they can still sort it out today. It’s a really important digit.